Life of ayuni, ends here, with a new beginning.
Ayuni, my eyes in arabic, nickname for the one you love. She was the eyes. And he was her love, once...
It ended...long time before they knew. Blinded by own loneliness and selfishness, they, silently, remain in love. In love by possessing each other, both mentally and physically. Engulfed by their greed and lust, fueled by emptiness. Consuming themselves in the name of love.
Reality strike! He, run away. She, hide. Both crying, in the name of love. Fate is always against their will, they said. Still consumed in the pass, the passionate memories, exhilarating moment, the blinded happiness, they, still believe, in love. One fine day, when they are nearer to their grave, will they still think the same? The same heart-gripping feeling that they once feel for each other
Ayuni, my eyes, guide me, lead me to the future, where i find my past, way behind me.
They loved each other, once, not anymore, what remains, is merely an illusion.
Sunday, 31 August 2008
Thursday, 28 August 2008
かぐや姫: Kaguya
Princess Kaguya:
The emperor said: burn them all, I have no desire to live forever without Kaguya
The emperor said: burn them all, I have no desire to live forever without Kaguya
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
Game philosophy
Games, fun and interesting, I am sure the person that invent this word, the idea or the concept did not merely just want to have fun. Game has its own philosophy, that of coz is just my personal humble opinion.
To play a game, first thing first, is to know the instruction and game rules. Once you understand this, you then figure out how to win or score. Most of the time, understanding instructions and rules are the more complicated process. Even it's a physical game such as ball game, fight game and other, strategy is important. Some lucky ones may stroll pass easy (just as they would in life).
I am not good with instruction and rule, I like them to be there, but doesn't mean I know or like to comply with them. Guidance note could maybe replace instruction or rule?! There are a couple of times, when I tried my best effort to remember all the rules, check the list in my head, then damn it, I missed one biggie, there, I lost the game! Yup, I squeeze my head hard, tried my best effort, and this is what I deserved? tough luck! Life for you!
My game philosophy: losing or winning may not be the ultimate aim. It is the process that counts! Did I have fun during those brain squeezing times, yeah, it's good feeling to know that my brain still function the way I like to be, or even better, if I can think beyond that~ like an athletics, they always strike to go beyond their limits, only to find their limit, coz if you don't do that, how to do you know your limit?!
To play a game, first thing first, is to know the instruction and game rules. Once you understand this, you then figure out how to win or score. Most of the time, understanding instructions and rules are the more complicated process. Even it's a physical game such as ball game, fight game and other, strategy is important. Some lucky ones may stroll pass easy (just as they would in life).
I am not good with instruction and rule, I like them to be there, but doesn't mean I know or like to comply with them. Guidance note could maybe replace instruction or rule?! There are a couple of times, when I tried my best effort to remember all the rules, check the list in my head, then damn it, I missed one biggie, there, I lost the game! Yup, I squeeze my head hard, tried my best effort, and this is what I deserved? tough luck! Life for you!
My game philosophy: losing or winning may not be the ultimate aim. It is the process that counts! Did I have fun during those brain squeezing times, yeah, it's good feeling to know that my brain still function the way I like to be, or even better, if I can think beyond that~ like an athletics, they always strike to go beyond their limits, only to find their limit, coz if you don't do that, how to do you know your limit?!
Monday, 25 August 2008
bad behaviour-the thinking process
What constitute a bad behaviour?
some consider swearing, spitting, farting, binge drinking, speaking loudly in a restaurant and etc.
some consider not.
Why so?
the thinking process behind govern by a lot of things, but mainly by past experience. You brain recognises that from past experience, you have had a an unpleasant moment with people that behaved like for example: swearing.
Culture play a significant role, as well as the way you were brought up when you are young.
Noone is born with knowledge that they will hate swearing, unless of coz the mom always tell them antenatally.
After all this rambling, so what do I consider a bad behaviour? Being intendedly evil and knowingly taking advantage of someone is an extremely bad behaviour. Cheating is another intoleratable behaviour. I have some pretty bad experience in being taken advantage especially when I trust that person so much. To me you can choose to dislike or like the person, curse them when you are unhappy, beat them up (well, not encouragable) or not befriend with them anymore. Not taking advantage of them coz they are weaker, it is not difference to bullying, especially they have trust on you. It is like a betrayal~lowest of the low!
I can preach whatever I like here, but still I am in the end just human, with feelings and emotions. We make mistakes, some could be ractifiable, but some may not be. I won't pretend that I am great, coz I am not. Ultimately, if you dislike me, you can just tell me in the face (I might cry, but that is beside the point), or even choose to ignore me altogether. But if you have a great heart and willing to forgive me, that will be something that is special in life. Something to look forward to everyday, knowing that there are still people out there that are with big hearts and willing to past this good deed on to someone else...
some consider swearing, spitting, farting, binge drinking, speaking loudly in a restaurant and etc.
some consider not.
Why so?
the thinking process behind govern by a lot of things, but mainly by past experience. You brain recognises that from past experience, you have had a an unpleasant moment with people that behaved like for example: swearing.
Culture play a significant role, as well as the way you were brought up when you are young.
Noone is born with knowledge that they will hate swearing, unless of coz the mom always tell them antenatally.
After all this rambling, so what do I consider a bad behaviour? Being intendedly evil and knowingly taking advantage of someone is an extremely bad behaviour. Cheating is another intoleratable behaviour. I have some pretty bad experience in being taken advantage especially when I trust that person so much. To me you can choose to dislike or like the person, curse them when you are unhappy, beat them up (well, not encouragable) or not befriend with them anymore. Not taking advantage of them coz they are weaker, it is not difference to bullying, especially they have trust on you. It is like a betrayal~lowest of the low!
I can preach whatever I like here, but still I am in the end just human, with feelings and emotions. We make mistakes, some could be ractifiable, but some may not be. I won't pretend that I am great, coz I am not. Ultimately, if you dislike me, you can just tell me in the face (I might cry, but that is beside the point), or even choose to ignore me altogether. But if you have a great heart and willing to forgive me, that will be something that is special in life. Something to look forward to everyday, knowing that there are still people out there that are with big hearts and willing to past this good deed on to someone else...
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