Leadership training

I am a lucky girl. My work, which is part funded by the UK government, allow me to have training opportunity. This week, has been a hectic week. It is also the last module that I am going to do for my training, it is called Business leadership.

It is an insipring course...this is going to be the last day.

The training provider is Ashorehill. Two lovely ladies, Jill and Claire are our trainers. I would say they are two complete opposite and yet insipiring and motivating individuals. The training involve very little lecturing, there are alot of exploring own self and own leadership ability. I always have my doubt of being a leader as I always think that I am too emotional and not methodological. However, this training has provided an insight information of my own way of management style. And, although there are alot of areas that I need to improve to be an effective leader, I do have the quality.

I was very touch last night. Last night was feedback night. During the week I lead a small team on a graveyard shift (18:30 to 08:00). I was completely tired at the end of the day, yet excited as well. I really wanted this opportunity to get a lot of feedback from my leadership, especially negative feedback. My team members were excellent team! I really need to mentioned their names: Judith, Steve, Craig, Satish, Tushar, Keiran and Chan. They are amazing and supportive. I am really glad I was given this opportunity...so much fun~

Thanx guys~

Housemate 室友

我的室友，是个男人。当然，我们只是住在同一个屋檐下，不同床…呵呵！
说来，他也是个可爱的男人。静静的，有点点害羞，但是很好人。（肯收留我的人不多。。。肯让我留下来的人也不多。。。）他特爱干净，家里一尘不染，又有礼貌。。。

我的运气是很好。

话说回来，我的室友的女友，也很可爱。其实，他们俩让人觉得羡慕的幸福。可爱的女友让害羞的室友开怀大笑，也只有他们俩在一起，室友的对话也跟着多了，声音爽朗开心。。。我替他们开心，但愿人长久：）

记得我是在今年三月搬进这里，室友应该才刚刚与女友在一起，看着他们俩每天的感情越来越好，我有说不出的感动，哈，也觉得有趣，嘻嘻。女友一天一天把她的私人用品留下，也代表着他俩的感情越来越亲密。。

多妙。。。

也许好事将近呢！（会不会赶我走呢？）

但愿人长久。。。

奇怪的中秋

天气冷冷的，天空一整天都布满了雾。。。迷迷糊糊的，懒懒的，但是，这里的人儿啊，已经习惯了这样的感觉，所以他们也是懒懒的。。

这个中秋，没有中秋的感觉，我不好，没有祝妈妈爸爸中秋节快乐，我只是告诉他们关于他，和他的可爱。。。爸妈很替我开心，嘻嘻。。。

他，很可爱。
只有忍不住想拥抱他。
他煮了咖哩饭，还有提拉密苏。。。（我们把提拉密苏当早餐吃）
有一点点的怀疑自己的运气。。。

这个中秋，好浪漫的奇怪。。。

有了，有初恋的感觉了。。。

天啊！都多大了。。。

忘了所有烦恼，只想和你在一起，漫游天下

多心，花心， 没有心-开心

小黑是多心,花心, 还是没有心呢?

小黑也喜欢与游戏王子一起玩.游戏王子,表面看起来很好玩,其实好男人一名,有始有终,忠心耿耿,是女 人的梦想

小黑喜欢与毛先生一起玩.毛先生,偶尔的不理不睬,偶尔的关怀,还有大胆的冒险尝试, 让小黑觉得新鲜刺激,若有若无,多犯践.

小黑也喜欢与石油大亨一起玩. 他温柔的关怀,细心和温暖的拥抱,让小黑觉得很有安全感.

小黑爱他们吗?

小黑全都爱,博爱人生.

小黑在想...

Life goes on

Life goes on....birth, growing old, sickness, death...the four processes that are described in Buddhism. Life won't wait. It just progress on. Whether you like or not. Some people resist the progress...in fact most people do. Managing changes, one of the criteria to be a manager, similar to changes in life.

I am a little dumb in life. I will only realised that I am undergoing changes, or need changed whenever I see my friend moving on..i.e. getting married, having baby, buying house and new flat! I will be thinking....what did I do while they progress in their life? I have been....having fun! does having fun constitute a progress? Does how society perceive my life matters? do I care??most probably not...happily live in my small little world, surrounded by strange and amazing people~Life experience that money can't buy.

One thing I learn and will always bear in mind is:- life is not easy, and nothing comes for free. Hard work and determination are key to success in life. Sounds cheesy, I know. But that is the truth, to get whatever you want in life, it won't fall from the sky.

Work hard~gambateh~加油!

Thank you~you, yes you~ all of my beloved~friends and family~passer-by~buddies~colleagues~ yes~you! Bad or good, thank you for being in my life~reminding me of why I am here

coffee and non coffee lover

I am a coffee lover, smell of good coffee (especially in Italy) make me feel alive again (not that I am dead), nice coffee smell makes a bad day seems better...life is worth living again. (sounded as if I am having a depressing life.. :P)

Coz I am a coffee lover, most friends I hang out with are coffee lover too. Obviously that does not apply to all, in fact I have quite a few of very close and best friends aren't coffee lover. We get along no problem.

I often wonder, are we divided into two groups: coffee and non coffee lover? I know world aren't black and white, there are always the gray areas..

Coffee lovers often display certain characteristics, for me as a coffee lover, it is easily identifiable. For example, they generally prefer dark chocolate, quite stubborn or determine, savor the moment when they drink coffee, maybe love travel too...yeah, i know, it is a little over-generalised, in fact, it is very bias, just merely, describing myself..kekekeke~

Love coffee, not because of the caffeine (I don't really have the addict, can live without it). Love the feeling of loving coffee. Smell of coffee reminded me of the good times, in Malaysia, in italy, in France, in tunisia...good times spent with random stranger in cafe (still remember a greek guy named Perrie who always sit besides me whenever I went to buongiorno), time spent with beloved in cafe, time spent talking about politics and loads of other crap over coffee~ that's life!

Life with coffee, life well spent~

Free soul

Free~

no fear, no boudaries, no expectation, no greed, no requirement, no limit, no tiredness

it's all just illusion

see pass it~

see it through that thin layer of disguise

freed yourself

go beyond

use your potential

exceed your limits

go go go!!!

gambateh~

I want I want I want

to be free!

Autumn is here

I can almost smell the autumn, drifting slowly in the air, gradually spreading the way through the land, pushing summer aside.

This summer was great, at least I have few occasion to bare my legs and wear slippers

What have I done this summer? lots and nothing...

be merry, just having tremendous fun~

lost my soul...found again...reborn~

autumn, brings new sense, new hope, new sensation

chill~wake me from the summer indulgent~

be prepare~before winter comes

work hard~work~I can get what I want!

be merry~be merry~

I want you

I want you~

I want to feel you~

I want to want you~

I want you for wanting me~

I want you to be what I want~

No!

I don't

I want you

I want a life

family and friends

I just want to be happy

I want to have money, see the places I want to see, be safe, cry, feel the pain, be human, be touched, love, and be loved, sacrifies, contribute, give, and take

I want to be a human

I want you

Just you

no more

no less

just

you

What am I thinking?

What am I thinking?

Searching hard

locating my brain, like the search engine in the computer

browsing and browsing

hold on, mind playing tricks!

that file was not there before, suddenly it appears!What has happened?

oh no, yeah, file was never used, it has gradually been forgotten.

Let's open that file:

Look! it's you~you with no face, just a mere label, with a lot of people. It was a happy moment! Happy memories
He was there too, oh, and her! and them! wow, should have looked at this file more. We had so much joy~!

Enough of the happy moment, searching continues...

Am I happy?

Searching engine showed lot's of files: smell of lemon in Capri under the winter sun, looking at Mona Lisa's devily smile, Chicha-blinding smoke of happiness, sun~air that filled with hope.

Happy now?

Brain not responding. Too many conditioning and programming. Guess it needs some optimising, look the world, in different eyes. Everything is relative

Happy now?

Still too many options to click! damn! empty recycle bin! Empty them all! Kick those bad junk memories that destroy my day! put them in blocked senders!

Defrag and brain clearing now...

Life is simple..

Whole brain needs to be renamed: Live life for yourself, not others!