She becomes an angel~

I phoned home today. Kinda needed to hear my mom's voice. I miss home. and I feel grim since Lauren passed away. I told my mom, but warned her not to panic before I say more. Mom took it very well. Mom said it is alright, Lauren is young, hence I feel that way. Mom said at least there are no suffering. Mom told me Lauren has been to a better place, which leads me think that she becomes an angel...i felt so much better. I told mom, somehow I wish I told her...there is a small part of me that felt it before it happen..it sounded strange...just a feeling, I was telling Lauren that I am gonna have my hair cut, and dyed my hair in the salon that she recommended me. Lauren had her pink hair highlight, was looking good, but at the same time, she looked pale...maybe coz of her make up.

I don't think I will attend her funeral. I don't think I can bare to go through this. I will miss her...

I am glad I phoned mom...just like a massive hugs landed on me.