My visa got rejected. because of one tiny mistake. All I can say is...nothing. Think nothing. Mind is so blank. I feel so detached to the world. Probably just a defence mechanism so I won't feel so disappointed and angry and do stupid things.
I do nothing else but to find ways to get myself sorted and hopefully I can go home by christmas eve...I want to go home! I can't bare to see the disappointment in my family's eyes. and you, Mr. Wolf...sigh~
I can't ask anyone, I don't believe in God, I still pray, not to anyone, but to myself, that I can go through this.
I thank you..yes you, Mr. Wolf for being with me. At least listening to my blurb for hours, I hope I can be with you in Malaysia. Also, Mrs supermom, thanks for helping me and supporting me and also so understanding. Also, for once, thanks Mr.Evil, for your sympathy, hope you don't back stab me now and stand over me because of this, but I will try to believe you are sincere.
I am emotionless. I hope I can feel again. The happiness, warmth, smile, touch, and hugs...the sun, the sea and my family.
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